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. . . . as the physical assault continues, outnumbered by attackers, I weaken and stumble . . . . blood is now coming from several painful wounds . . . . blows are rained down upon my head and shoulders . . . . my body collapses on to the cold concrete of the dark, damp alleyway . . . . my last fleeting conscious thought is “I am dead.” . . . .

. . . . regaining consciousness after an indeterminate time . . . . I am suspended inside the atom now . . . . the greyish white electrons zipping past are acting like waves and like particles . . . . fluctuating in shape and intensity as they shoot by . . . . seen but for a brief instant sort of like meteors rapidly vanishing in the night sky . . . . now and then an electron abruptly appears out of nowhere and then fades out, or loses its existence, as quickly as it appeared . . . . a weird quantum effect . . . .

. . . . the large spherical yet faceted, segmented nucleus is pulsing – swelling and contracting – rhythmically . . . . with energy and in varying shades or hues of blue and violet . . . . the weak nuclear force is struggling with the strong nuclear force and the natural dislike of the blue protons for one another . . . . the violet energetic neutrons spin or rotate rapidly between the calmer protons . . . . it is not so much the nucleus as a whole pulsing as it is the individual protons and neutrons vibrating and swelling and contracting individually . . . . the aggregate effect of which gives a strangely enchanting kaleidoscopic visual effect . . . . an ethereal and dynamic, jewel like mandala image . . . .

. . . . but there is a presence, a sentience, here . . . . I feel it . . . . may not be able to get out . . . . may be trapped here in a limbo like existence . . . . where time is an abstract idea because nothing changes here inside the atom . . . .

. . . . there is another of those “quantum” electrons winking in and out between our universe, and what? . . . . could I move towards one . . . . I can move . . . . my thoughts somehow propel me in the direction where the quantum effects seem most frequent . . . . there, I made it . . . . now to see if I can grab a hold of an electron when it appears . . . . an electron materializes . . . . got it . . . . surprisingly there is no electric like shock when I touch it . . . .

. . . . the electron is fading . . . . everything is going dark . . . . . . . . now, there is a light . . . . beginning to lose consciousness again . . . . a weird feeling all over me and in me . . . .

 

If you enjoy easy listening or soft rock music, here are 2 well done videos of the nice songs:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=98LaApCB4l8   Seals and Crofts – Hummingbird (song is from 1973)

Ignore the ads on YouTube – this next song is nice.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FGX9fB3S1RU   Chicago – No Tell Lover

Enjoy!